hahaz, read e joke yet? if not gogogo..
was pretty sad afew days ago but beta aft gg to church.. i feel refreshed n motivated after i went church.. at least it is true in my case..
e past few days have been qt hectic. n i haven be able to discipline myself.
today went out for lunch w amy aft e Chem paper n we found out tt wo both loved almond jellies.. actually i just love almonds!!! =) so satisfied. we talked abt alot of thgs which made me think of smth. hahaz. i just dun understand..


am i tt unwanted.. y r u treating me like this? do u find me irritating n nosey? i din mean it. if it was me tt made u feel like tt, im real sorry. but u were e one who lead me on.. am i just someone tt replaces e significant one in ur heart when she hurts u?? and like a piece of junk when she's ard? am i not good enuff? y am i not appreciated.. i dun understand. y isit tt u confided in me, gave me false hopes, n chuck me somewhere else, never bother about me. ur vested interest is clear to me initially. u r e predator n im e willing prey. but ur attitude, ur actions convey otherwise. i do wonder.. when r u going to look at me from other perspective? im so helpless, im so unsure, im tired clinging unto this faint n bleak future, but i crave for u.. every moment.. if u knew.. i really zaihu ni.. y do u ignore me? my heart aches when i awaits ur reply msges tt destined never come. y am i so silly. tt i falled into ur trap. i vowed to forget u, but i think i never will. maybe its wrong, but im willing, im e stupid one.........


i hope i can be like her, ask u to leave me n get outta my sight. but i cant. do u see tt?? i cant bear to treat u badly, tt i lose my character, tt im no longer myself in front of u. im always so different in front of u. not my usual self. cos im just so dun wana spoil my image infront of ya.. this is wad i have chosen. what i have deserved. so dun empathise with me, n i will thank you..