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heyhey pple.. im pretty happy nowadays.. just tt prelims round e corner.. miss all e gals ard.. love ya guys n qt happy class has a blog.. http://aj0903.blogspot.com feel free top drop by..
nth much but got a personal best for compre RJ midyrs 33/50 was elated n shocked.
was qt happy actually homosexuality was a chinese tradition 1st recorded in 2000BC but experts think it started ard 9000BC.. hehex.. well, i do admit i do have such inclination.. =) it only bcum unacceptable when Christian n muslims missionaries went to China.. n proliferate e ideas...
em.. yup.. basically tt's it.. n em.. im just v happy over sth i ought nt be... =)
wel.. met another gurl fr my skl who's fr msia n my father's her tuition tcher.. =)
i left my passport in KL too.. bleahz.. i asked my parents bring back a bag tt contains e passport n my sis brought it up w her.. =( bad news.. qt troublesome ar..
ciaoz.. byes
ohh.. just read karboon's blog so decided to add sth.. i love 09/03.. i love e civics tt we just had n i love e corporate video.. i had a bad day yesterday n i rly was vvvv touched n tears almost break thru e barrier... em.. thx goodness i controlled it if nt i think many of us will cry...
yesterday also got scolded fr mr tan.. our principal.. called our names one by one.. erm.. feeling xtra stressed n stuffs w loadsa things left undone... im sick of this world.. but yeah, its just like 3 more mths to go??? n im nt yet 18!!! nt legal yet. haiz... i hope i can get my engine gg n dun let myself n my parents down.. emm.. enuff said.. i love 09 n kw n my hostel peeps n dos whom i think u know who u r... u r always der.. a significant part.. i love ya guys.. sorry if i have been annoying but i rly DO LOVE YA... =)
hurhur, just donated my bld.. precious bld.. n won praises fr clement ong.. hehex.. he say im a GOOD GURL.. haiz.. dunthink any1 fr our class is donating any bld lor.. hmm.. winning laughter.... em.. but slpt 430 last nite./. gona go back n conk out soon. cya peeps ard..
yesterday was certainly a bad day 4 me...
emm.. in skl, math.. spirit dampened by sth happened.. hmm.. i am pissedby tis guy larhz.. bleah, dunthink he'll ever know im pissed w him.. passing those stupid remarks at e wrong time n thinking he is so great... hmmm.. i do not think so lor.. somebody r just so self-inflating.. hmm.. stil at complex 3, seriously lagging but duncare.. somehowi dun feel like doing it.. fuck it..
just nw some irritating guys just use e stupid msn messenger to irritate me.. n i bloody hell irritated le.. not in good mood today so dun cum n mess w me.. fuck it.. rly...
sometimes we r just puppets, driven by society to where dey
wan us to go..
i feel so lost in the rushing tide.....
hai... i have so many thgs to blog abt.. deprived of internet connection in hostel cos debbie finish my credits.. i swear i will nv give my passwordy to any1 else.. its so troublesome when u nid it u cant use it.. cos at tt time i din have like 10 bucks??? haiz...
em.. sat: phy test shucks to e core den i played badminton w classmates aft tt.. so fun.. but resulting in me suffering fr severe muscle ache.. bleahz,. funniest part is like 4 of us against tanzhihao n yonghao... was qt slack.. den chiong hm rested 4 1 hr den choing out 4 shuqi's competition! v nice! n she won.. so happy 4 her.. =) den vvv tired em choing hm n slp.. i actually met ms thory chau twice in 2 days!!! she's my ex sec sch eng tcher but its kinda freaky i met her on fri in acsb den on Sat at laupasat.. bleahz.. freaky...
nvm.. den i slpt e whole day on Sun den daddie n sis came.. but dey were late so we just met like less than 15 mins??? haiz.. miss dem.. nxt tym sis will be in KL n it will be hard for us to meet... haizhaiz... prelims coming n im stressed.. hw???
n i miss 'him'....hahaz
thot i will nv care, but deep down i do.. im
hurt.. painfully..
Ponned skl again.. hehex.. but gg skl later 4 gp compre common test.. haiz, this tym rly nt feeling well.. stomachache.. plus headache n I think I got a cold.. kept on sneezing. Plus sore throat. My mouth is like damn dry.. I hate dis feeling lar.. cant type properly.. listening to landy’s new album. Chi songs. Qt nice. Any1 wans a copy?? Oki. Gtg le.. hungry also but no appetite… cya guys ltr..
em.. in skl lib nw.. feeling v stressed. n freakingly touched by e video of class 09/03.. hx to bernard n yzh for their effort n hardwork!
towards e end of e video i secretly wepted. i culdnt control myself. agn thinking of parting with dis whole bunch of great people tt we have bonded so well for e past 2 yrs.. n the video reminds me of e happier times we have had in J1 n starting of e yr rather than nw, when im barely surviving n gasping hard for breath.. e sense of belonging to our class is tremendous. at least is me to all e gurls in my class.. i cant bear to part w leena, her smile nv fails to brighten my day.. marlinda, always giving me tt assuring smile tt everythg wil be ok.. amy, her happy-go-lucky n down-to-earth character.. meimei, e same leaching girl.. intan, remembering her words of encouragement last yr n i had a major quarrel w kw..jacintha n her giggles plus scandals tt i forcefully put onto her n Ganison.. yanting n shuqi of course. dey r like my pillar in class giving me strength to carry on each day .. nt to forget hueychyi lishi my 2 dearest hostel peeps n karboon!
haiz.. coming to this stage,im at crossroads. just received a mail from Chun tt rly enlightens me, even e slackest r mugging nw, xcept me. y am i so lazy??? Genes? cant be, my sis is xtremely hardworking.. i always wana start but end in vain.. y is this so. seems like its time for sum self reflection.
classmates sitting ard in library mugging.......
*stress*
em.. today's ok lar.. went for this worship/ prayer thg in skl early in e morn at e grand stand. it was refreshing n i prayed alot plus e sharing session w dis guy. i certainly benefited.. i had calm n peace in me today n i think its e only wednesday tt i dun hav major attitude prob n conflicts within me.. im glad tt i God came n revealed Himself to me.. His salvation is wad i longed for.. i have bcum a changed person.. God made me a new self, a better self, which im pretty satisfied of. wad was pulling me away fr Him is basically e persecutions fr others n my family members. plus e expectations of fellow sisters n brothers in Christ on me to perform. i have to admit tt im under stress in quickly mature into a staunch Christian.. i dun speak tongues, but its a gift n tt i can learn it.. i cant approach pp n tell them hw e presence of Christ haf sucha great effect on me.. im scared, most of e pp turned der heads away when i mentioned 'church'.. i must say tt bcos of this i felt closer to some but farther fr others. but true frenship remains. im pretty new n lack of experience. n dis is causing stress but i realise God has plans for me, nw is nt e time tt He wans me to serve Him. their r so many other times tt i may serve Him for His love n Son tt He sent to redeem our sins..
i think its enuff of God's words. do not be misunderstood, im seriously troubled by dis.. slpin le.. cheerioz~
haiz.. just came back fr dinner n i die die wana add dis entry, im nt feeling well at all.. im super stressed by expectations of myself.. tt is to be gd to every1 n perform up to their expectations.. weird huh? i have been tryg hard to satisfy pp's needs while neglecting myself.. i fail to prioritise.. i fail to be selfish.. guess im suppose to be generous since im born e bld grp O. i hate skl. pp in skl make me feel sick. dey have been behaving oddly, cos of stress n undercurrents of e tension b4 exams ba.. competitions r like dis.. bleahz..
em.. just came back fr skll.. im here to xpress my disappointment in somethings n somebodies...
i rly cant understand u.. im just tryg to be friendly to u.. this mr A gave me a cold shoulder while i wanted to help him. oh wad his big fucking problem man, nt like i cant live w/o u.. n dun think i can live w/o him lor. i got so many freaky other frens lar.... hmm.. grunts.. wad kind of attitude is this towards ur fren?? n dun get e wrong idea, im nt e least interested in u.. stop being self inflating. i guess any1 on e streets r angels to me compared to u..
nxt is msB.. well.. i hate pp treating me like a spare tyre.. acting frenly while u nid me.. well, i may nt be so close to u n dun bother to change my mind n thots. i fell 4 ur trap b4 n nw im a new self, a new individual whose decisions r nt easily swayed by any1.. when i talk of e subj of ur interest only den u bcom enthu, if nt, otherwise. wad's ur big fucking problem agn??? go fuck urself upside down lar.... i noe i shldnt swear but im nt so literary proficient enuff to mock pp w sarcasm.. so pardon me w my vulgar entries..
today is a BAD day in skl.. first we have to listen to a stupid talk in skl abt pearls den nxt is rugby den is GP(bleahz..) Maths(wad gg on huh?!) civic(stress management??? ya, reminds myself to stress myself even furthur tt i feel like puking nw..) lunch chem(oki lar.. but kinda upset by sth) den bio n math.
arghz.... i hate this world i hate exams, i hate it when pp jugde us by tt thin sheet of paper.. its just a rough gage n it may nt be true. its a measure of hw good can u perform under stress.. nt hw good u r.. hmm....w/o exams w/o A, life wuld be much prettier..
once kay asked me: if 4 u to choose agn, wil u stil stay in spore for As?
i've changed my mind 4 e ans i gave u tt day. nope!! i wuld have been like u in US enjoyg my tertiary edn rather than stuck in this tiny lil red dot where pp r so unfriendly to U.. fuck dos who r bad...
i love God.. "im in pain n distress..."
its 0751 on 15th Aug.. i just returned fr Changi Airport.. i dreaded gg der.. i sent off xiuling mayan n kayying der.. its a bad feeling.. not gg to c dem like a yr?? mayan is even worse. dun tink she'l cum back to spore.....
kayying just left.
n im already freaking missing her... i just read e note tt she wrote for me.. i rmbered dos days tt we pigged out at Giant Esso n Mobil. no matter hw weird des place sounds.. i rmb dos days tt she'l toast bread for me since i duno hw to use e toaster. till nw i stil duno hw to... its realy touching. i just emailed her. i wan her to read my mail in US for e first.
i had a hectic day. aft tests went w kangwei to cut her hair at kimage. rushes back skl to meet peiying but in e end she was late due to Mr lim's mock test. well, she duno also.. nvm.. n we went super duper late to church. aft church i went super duper late to swensens to meet my AJ folks den aft e feast i went superduper late to YWCA. summore walk wrongly... partyed 4 like 2 hrs or so i rushed down to Woodlands to meet kay.. at 1130 i reached woodlands.. pardon me if i have got spelling errors. mind blur. had only 4 hrs slp yesterday cos of tests n 2 hrs today.. damn shagged n gona conk out soon...
well, i stinks.. i haven bathe since eons ago.. cos i din haf e time to... i guess aft dis im gona cleanse myself, have brkfast, n slp like a pig till duno when...
i was real touched by yun's hug at ASEAN nite... i realy missed her hug.. its so warm n nice n so good to be in.. its kinda like a lost soul finally found where u belong.. saw chii also.. grew prettier n more mature.. cant rly recognise her.. saw alot of exNYG juniors nw j1 le... so fast hor... had a pretty fun time lar, lest beta den last yr......
pigging, cleaning, eating time.. wadeva cums first..
em.. in e lib nw..gg to meet kw n mug ltr... yeah.. i had Bio test n it was freaky difficult. n chem test was fine n a breeze but in the end its a self marked test.. so wasted... sian.. ltr gg church den asean nite den go out m stay w kayying.. so hectic. yesteerday missed skl haven write letter yet.. so sian... haiz.. update when i haf time agn.. byez
emm.. hehex. ponned skl today. think im getting fr bad to worse. haven been doing anythg. shld be studying. but i have been wasting my time online checking out bloggies.. oh im so kaypoh..
btw, yanting n qiqi i found wenwenerya's bloggie!!! hehex. hahahaz.. tzhihao has a bloggie too. prawn also.. hahaz... huhur... sangu has e same situation as qiqi also. but somehw she managed too find tt irritating idiotx who tagged her.. hahaz... cant contain my excitement. so many inside jokes. i esp loved agar!!! wahahahahaz.... its so qiao lor... OMG
aft browsing thru many pp's blog, think mine's freaky mundane. shld i start out sth tt's literary in nature tt's so chimchim.. hahaz, first time i read other's pp blog nv get v affected. normally i will just feel so down tt i wana cry it out loud..
i kept on being logged out. this sux. but i think i spent a bomb online today.. hafta go soon. anywaes tag me!!! hahaz. n qiqi, i forgot ur password le n i freky hell culdnt get into ur blog..
happy bdae kw!! thx u for being der always.. n so supportive!!
hur... ponned phy lect... not feeling well.. stomachache wana shit.. hahaz .. dis explains my shitty blog yea?
well.. suddenly rly nt feeling vvvvvvv well... i duno wad am i typing but im nt enjoying, haiz...........
i hate uncertainties...
i dun care!!! im gona wear e pink skirt n white top no matter how e other black dress accentuates my figure or make me look slimmer. y shld i go for e mature look? im nt tt old rite? i wana be pretty in pink. though i may look fat init.. haiz, y dey like to dominate over me? y cant i make my own decision. im seriously stubborn. i'd rather miss e free dinner n dance at YWCA.. i'd rather meet kayying earlier than being force fit into my black dress tt i dun think is suitable for such occasion. it's only an ASEAN nite w all scholars n y dey make such a big fuss over it??? i'm just gona dress up fpr prom. if i'm going. n i dun wana be overly dressed, i dun wana be so prim n proper. like an old virgin. spinster. fuck it.
hate it.. fuck it..
at home nw.. had lotsa treats fr mummy n daddie.. fish head curry, otah, treat to my fav restaurant, fresh seafood (unlike e ones u get fr hostel...), authentic Johor laksa.. den went shopping w my sisters. its totally wonderful. bot this pair of jeans at half price, damn gd deal.. n my dad actually allow me to buy a proper discman n he offered to pay for me but e models i saw here r v louyah n nt gd one.. hex, prob gg simlim w Deb n cc bahx.. oh, n im bringing back this pink skirt n a white top for ASEAN nite, cant wait for e treat at cartel fr juniors.. but i dun wana miss church tt day n e nxt day kayying's leaving.. haz!!! dad allowed me to stay out w her!!!
i went church tt day n felt nice abt it.. learnt alot again.. im totally set into my new roles.. wadeva it was...hahaz..
well, as stressfull as never.. im gona die soon. well, i wana a glass coffin n i wan it placed at mount kinabalu.. do ya guys hear tt? it sounds pretty weird but im kinda scared of hts so its a just nice pplace for me n i have nv been to sabah!!
euphoria.. but defeated by e reply....
happy bdae geraldine!
Spiritual healing in process....