*i hate it. life's seem crashing now to me. nobody's gona help me so i must leave everything to God. yup. He put me thru all this to test my faith. He is just like a Father wishing e best for His children.. yeah... but having said all tt, im still down depressed sad n at a cross roads. tho there's God, i still need man. no matter how man can be imperfect, im stil e same, i need a physical fren there always to be with me..

*alot of thgs have been happening to my friends ard me so far. i duno wad to say, i just feel sad n despair. tho i may not be v clase to them or wad, i feel their pain cos i have been agonising over e same stuffs b4. i know exactly how i feel. i dun wan anythg to happen to em now. cos As is drawing nearer n they need tt. its all my fault la.

*i thot my mood has been beta since yesterday cos i attended e sermon at e chapel. but well, not at all now. perhaps its a bloddy stupid idea for me to go skl today. i shld have skipped it so i wuldnt have so many things happening ard me. i hope so. sometimes i rly need a time machine.

*all my dears, i rly treasure u guys so much. wad has been happening to me has set me thinking. i wana express myself here in case i may not have any chance. be it i leave this beautiful country to my home or i just leave u guys. i cant bear to talk abt this. all this that has been happening is really daunting me. i dunwan...

*some of my classmates shld noe wad is happening. but there is still sth tt u guys may nv understand. n never need to cos its rly personal n i regretted telling e ONLY ONE. yup, its totally personal which may lead to sum1 to hate me. just dun care abt me n i will be fine...